LESS THAN PERFECT    Time: 8m33s    [Listen] I tried to treat her to a spotless soul / But found someone had painted it black / She laughed at my face and called me a fool / Then quite casually threw it right back / A thousand punches a thousand rolls / Would prove them bastards right / A million crippled dreams now crushed / And shattered left and right / It’s a less than perfect world / From what I’ve seen / It’s a less than perfect world / This worn down scene / I twist and I turn as I’m tumbling down / Onto the fractured remains of my past / Slamming onto the repulsive mess / That was me when I was less of a mess / A thousand punches a thousand rolls / Would prove them bastards right / A million crippled dreams now crushed / And shattered left and right / It’s a less than perfect world / From what I’ve seen / It’s a less than perfect world / This worn down scene / I was so sure we were different / I was so certain of us / We were so not like the others / You were so having me on Words by Mårten Kellerman. Music by Mårten Kellerman, Jörgen Josefsson and Rickard Gunnarsson. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

I DON'T DESERVE THE PLEASURE    Time: 4m43s If I have faded over time / If I’ve receded over the years / It’s all for the best / Wouldn’t want to stay the same / Wouldn’t want what would remain / But it hurts all the same / Yet I won’t allow myself to cry / I won’t allow myself to relieve me my pain / No I won’t allow myself to cry / I won’t allow myself to relieve me my pain / I don’t deserve the pleasure / We all got ways to get on by / Except the ones who don’t / I may be one of those who does / But not by easing out / I’m not seventeen no more / Not so sure I ever was / I sacrified my past / Became a lesser entity / I exorcised what made me me / No regrets still I ache / But I won’t allow myself to cry / I won’t allow myself to relieve me my pain / No I won’t allow myself to cry / I won’t allow myself to relieve me my pain / I don’t deserve the pleasure Words by Mårten Kellerman. Music by Mårten Kellerman and Jörgen Josefsson. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

THE LAST LEGAL DRUG    Time: 5m47s    [Listen] Think I think too much / Worry way too much / Always over-analyzing / Too much on my mind / Too one-of-a-kind / Wish it wasn’t quite so tiring / I always aim to please but / The harder I try / The harder I fail / Enjoying the last legal drug / In hope of a new sensation / Enjoying the last legal drug / In an attempt to sink the nation / I find pleasure in / The most trivial sins / Little things of no importance / So high when I’m filled / So down when I’m billed / In desperate need of a golden mean / Think I think too muc / Worry way too much / Always over-analyzing / Too much on my mind / Too one-of-a-kind / Wish it wasn’t quite so tiring / I always aim to please but / The harder I try / The harder I fail / Enjoying the last legal drug / In hope of a new sensation / Enjoying the last legal drug / In an attempt to sink the nation / This too shall pass / It always does / This too shall pass / To better days / To better years / To better dreams / To better deals / To better moods / And whatever needed Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Stranger Still    Time: 5m40s Taking a ride in a fabulous world / Where the sun shines at night and no one gets old / Focusing on a pinewood in blue / Where there is a house in rubber and glass / Walk through the door, have a look at the floor / There are thousands of stars spinning about / Taking the stairs to a room filled with dust / There are things everywhere and a moving rocking chair / And a man / Stranger still / Your need to disagree / Stranger still / Your inability / Stranger still / This lack of faith I see / Stranger still / Your lack of faith in me / He’s holding a book in his shivering hands / Looking deeply into it in some kind of trance / There on the sheet a princess so sweet / He is reaching for her but all for nought / And I’m aching for him / I dream my dream alone / In it’s darkness I find hope / My mind creates the lies / I need to get through the day / I dream again and again / Sometimes it’s new / More often the same / Sometimes it’s all that’s real / No matter how surreal / I don’t know how you manage to get by / Can you tell by the face I’m making? / I don’t know what to do to understand / Can you tell by the smile I’m faking? Words by Mårten Kellerman. Music by Mårten Kellerman and Jörgen Josefsson. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

I'm Love    Time: 6m01s I have a cottage tucked inside / A well kept secret deep in me / It hides a heart-shaped pool within / And I invite you for a nocturnal swim in me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / And you should step into me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / You’re free to swim inside me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / And you should feed upon me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / Just when I thought I’d had enough / Just when I thought I’d given up / I find the masochist in me / Sublet my heart and put a vacancy sign on me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / And you should step into me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / You’re free to swim inside me / I’m love I’m love I’m love today / And you should feed upon me / I’m love I’m love just take advantage of the fact / That I have opened up to you today Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Emo    Time: 3m33s Hurt me while I’m lying down / With frozen lips on frozen ground / Apart from pain / It’s all quite nice / Apart from pain / I’m almost fine / You have just abandoned me / Still it doesn’t get to me / You have just abandoned me / Left me to my fantasies / My mind keeps triggering / Flashing and failing / Pictures of you / And voices wailing / Hurt me when defences is low / When parasites have come to rule / Besides I never wanted life / A fucking smoke like hope or love / You have just abandoned me / Still it doesn’t get to me / You have just abandoned me / Left me to my fantasies / My mind keeps triggering / Flashing and failing / Pictures of you / And voices wailing / And I don’t know why, it just shouldn’t be / You’re nothing, I swear, but air to me / And I don’t know why, it just shouldn’t be / Cause I never wanted you anyway Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

When To Fold    Time: 5m34s    [Listen] It’s so hard to find / Words I need to say / I find it hard to believe / They will come to me one day / Spending so much time / Writing so many words / Still they don’t get better / And neither does my state / No neither does my state / I’ve been waiting for so long / I’ve paid my debts to you / Spending so much time / Devoting it all to you / Think I know myself / Think I know my ghouls / Think I’m true to myself / Just never learned when to fold Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

PAINT IT BLACK    Time: 4m48s    [Listen] Words & music by Keith Richards and Mick Jagger. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine at Jennifer's, Stockholm. Published by Essex Musikförlag & ABKCO Music.

Now, Now You Don't    Time: 5m59s I’m prone to hunger / You’re prone to leaving / Escaping nothing / While getting nowhere / Your constant running / My constant wanting / Achieving nothing / By being nothing / Will you come my way? / Will I come yours? / Now you love me / Now you don’t / Will you come round? / Will I go down? / Now you love me / Now you don’t / By suppressing hope / By suppressing truth / I remain in tune / With this song we’re singing / For all I know / It’s the end of me / Am I for or against? / I can’t trust myself / Will you come my way? / Will I come yours? / Now you love me / Now you don’t / Will you come round? / Will I go down? / Now you love me / Now you don’t Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Battered and Bruised    Time: 7m07s. Tempo: 94 BPM    [Listen] Guess I had to be kind of blind not to see / How it was bound to be in vain / Hung around for the plot to thicken / While being stabbed again and again / This time I’ll burn all bridges leading back Cause I’m not sure I’m strong enough / I simply have to bail / I’m fare to frail to be at the receiving end / I feel torn apart and abused / Battered and bruised / I guess I’m stupid to nurture an addiction to hope / But it’s not my only vice / I surrendered again thought things would change / Now imagine my surprise / This time I’ll burn all bridges leading back / Cause I’m not sure I’m strong enough / I simply have to bail / I’m fare to frail to be at the receiving end / I feel torn apart and abused / Battered and bruised Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's, Stockholm 1998. Guitars by Fred Caelou. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

The Last Legal Drug [whatevermix]    Time: 3m47s    [Listen] Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Additional keyboards and guitars by Fred Caelou. Remixed by Statemachine at Jennifer's, Stockholm. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

I'm Love [club mix]    Time: 7m15s. Tempo: 138 BPM    [Listen] Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Remixed by Utti at FBI Studios, Stockholm 2003. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Epitaph    Time: 4m51s    [Listen] Did you lose your way? / Did you lose your way / All too suddenly? / Was it unwillingly? / And I ’m wondering / I am wondering / Did you find your way? / Did you find yourself? / And I ’m hoping that / I am hoping that / You can trust yourself now / And know yourself / And I'm praying that / I am praying that / You can handle your regrets / Myself i can’t / As I'm too wound up / I am too wound up / Over losing you / Losing me / Man, I'm too despaired / I am too despaired / To concede myself / To believe myself / Did you move along? / Did you move along / Like you needed to? / Even wanted to? / It would be too sad / It'd be too sad / If you couldn't / Though I thought you shouldn't / Even hoped you wouldn't / Hoped you wouldn't / As for me, I'm still looking for you / In everyone I see / Only I can't find you, or me / Or anything really Words by Mårten Kellerman. Music by Jörgen Josefsson, Mårten Kellerman and Magnus Sundström. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm 2003. Additional production by Fred Caelou and The Protagonist. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Thinking Out Loud    Time: 4m24s    [Listen] Her faces hide behind an introverted smile / From enjoying mental flicks that flash before her eyes / She’s got it bad she’s in well over her head / Poor Jackie’s lost herselves in shades of deep red / With a set of strippers dancing madly in her head / While sifting solemnly through pages of her life / Our Jackie’s coming to she’s surfacing fast / With a set of strippers dancing madly in her head / Erotic monsters sleeping under her bed / So scared of coming out or thinking out loud / So scared of coming out or thinking out loud / With a set of strippers dancing madly in her head / Erotic monsters sleeping under her bed / If you’ll trust me I'll trust in you / Believe in me like I believe in you Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine at Jennifer's and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Less Than Perfect [club remix]    Time: 7m11s    [Listen] Words by Mårten Kellerman. Music by Mårten Kellerman, Jörgen Josefsson and Rickard Gunnarsson. Remixed by Statemachine at FBI Studios, Stockholm. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

Heal    Time: 3m40s. Tempo: 110 BPM    [Listen] Sat down to write a book / But all that came out was one lousy line / Couldn’t make up the story in time / It was twenty years ago today / The paper’s still there in the typewriter / And I can still remember that very first line / Maybe all that I grow is a hole in myself / All I accomplish is lost on myself / Yet all I feel is the way i heal / Maybe all I can grow is this hole in myself / But then maybe I don’t mind losing myself / When all I feel is the way I heal / I'm the dot at the end of the trail of debris / Been filling my void with semantic debris / Now all I feel is the way I heal Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer's, Stockholm. Assisted by Magnus Sundström. String arrangements by Magnus Sundström (The Protagonist). Additional keyboards and programming by Fred Caelou and Magnus Sundström. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.

I'm Love [tilliander remix]    Time: 4m47s Words & music by Mårten Kellerman. Remixed by Andreas Tilliander at Repeatle, Stockholm. Published by Warner/Chappell & Subspace Communications.